Here I am during my teenage years … I really thought I had life all figured out. The pieces seemed to fit together so very nicely back then:
This is me in my late 20’s, married to a great guy, starting a business, things were really coming together. There had been some bumps in the road, but I was pretty sure I finally had it all figured out.
Here I am in my roles as wife, mother, business owner, and spiritual seeker. Life was feeling settled, like everything has fallen into place.
During our son’s teen years, I felt so scattered! I was so confused, looking for answers in the four corners of the world. Maybe from the outside things looked ordered. Inside, I was definitely searching!
When mid-life hit, it all fell apart! I was disconnected, uncertain, and lost. Not only had I lost the answers, I was losing my grip on the questions.
Here I am as I began to look inward for the answers, and even though it seemed like there was a lot missing, I started to feel my inner world coming together for the first time.
This is me during the Coach Training Program. Pieces I had never really gotten to know were beginning to line up. I was asking some good questions and starting to see new possibilities.
This is me starting my day in prayer and meditation at the cottage, feeling whole and connected to the universe.
And here I am on a typical day: connected, scattered, clueless, and yet certain. Certain that I can rearrange the pieces without losing myself. Certain that there is still so much to learn. And certain, finally, that I will NEVER have it all figured out. And that’s okay.
Coach Barbie Dallmann 
Barbie, You have a wonderful way of putting into words and art exactly how I feel too!! I really enjoy your blog. I’m starting Monday on an inner and outer explore as I through hike the Colorado trail solo.
Hi, Lynn! It’s so cool the way you explore your outer world as a way of exploring your inner world. Solo hiking! You are one brave woman! Sending you lots of love. Sure hope our paths cross again soon (although I can almost assuredly say they won’t be crossing on that Colorado trail!)
You never fail to amaze me with your creativity and insight! Bravo!! I love the pieces – they are all beautiful like the parts of you. And no matter how they fit together, like you it all seems good. Thank you for the reminder:)
I love this visual. It reminds me that we always have all our parts, even if one gets lost under the sofa or we try to bury another under the oak tree! Thanks for sharing your wisdom, Barbie. Always inspiring.
Wow that was strange. I just wrote an incredibly long comment but after I clicked submit my comment didn’t appear.
Grrrr… well I’m not writing all that over again. Anyhow, just wanted to say superb
blog!
So sorry I don’t get to read your long comment, but I totally understand. I would feel the exact same way, especially when u using my phone. Thanks for taking a second go.