
“New Beginnings” – Acrylic painting to be auctioned at the Charleston Art Walk April 17 to raise funds for the WV Children’s Advocacy Network
Last year at this time I was insistently resisting the label “artist” (See: I’m not THAT!). This year when I received the “Call to Artists” email, asking for donations of art to be auctioned at a fundraiser for a West Virginia non-profit, I excitedly began thinking about making a contribution. Yesterday I awoke at 4 a.m. having just finished the painting in my dreams.
I picked my way through the dark woods to the cottage and happily assembled my supplies, all the while trying to recall the details of the dream painting. I sketched it out quickly on the back of a things-to-do list, made a few notes, and then started painting. This morning I declared it finished because it brought a smile to my face.
Last year’s agony of creation is gone; today I was so absorbed in the joy of painting, I completely forgot to drink my coffee! Now, that’s seriously absorbed!
In this moment, I’m feeling happy and proud of myself. This past year, I’ve willingly worked through a lot of painful memories and purposefully healed those wounds. I’ve butted up against some major barriers, including “I don’t know what I’m doing!” and “I’m not good enough.” Patience, kindness and self-compassion have gradually reduced the size of the barriers. Although, still big enough to be recognizable, they have gradually become small enough to step over. Finally I find myself in a valley of contentment with feelings of satisfaction, freedom, delight, and whimsy. There is a sacred flow that happens now when I paint. It has become a time of communion with my higher self–a peaceful meditation. Lost in time and space, I become childlike, curious and delighted with the colors and shapes. It isn’t about getting certain results, it’s just about the fun of dabbling.
I long to more regularly feel that sense of freedom that comes from releasing attachment to outcome. I wonder what it would be like to approach every task in my life with playful curiosity and delight. When I think about where I was artistically just five years ago (couldn’t even draw a stick man) to where I am today, it makes me believe anything is possible. Yes, it does require a conscious desire to create something new as well as focused effort, but if it results in more connection, freedom, and joy, then count me in!
I’m really glad you are where you are today! What a wonderful journey, and you have captured much of it in your paintings!
Thanks, Kate. You’ve been such an incredible inspiration to me. Thank you especially for the little books you gave me for painting. That made such a HUGE difference for me. It was so much less intimidating to work on a small canvas. You are wise and supportive … and I LOVE you!
Barbie I am very proud of you too Barrie
You have arrived my friend to a place of ease with mind, soul and heart. You have found the creative flow in art the same as you have used for all your work we have loved it!!!
Good for you!!! I so enjoy reading your blog!! We are in Florida, heading north (as far as North Carolina) to hopefully enjoy the azaleas and rhododendron !! With kayaks on the car (sorry to say we didn’t bring the bikes…I’m regretting that)…we are enjoying the journey!! Love, Lynn
Lynn – I so enjoy getting your comments and following your travels. You are such an inspiration!! We’ll be biking on the Big Island of Hawaii come August. Now THAT will be an adventure, for sure!